Onto what I actually wanted to talk about. So last year after 13 years of schooling i finally completed my primary and secondary education including the terrifying and life destroying victorian certificate of education. That whole year I put off so many aspects of life to further progress academic acheivement allowing myself to plan for the future and now i find myself in the thick of the mess of everything i denyied before.
So now i sit here aboslutly lost in the vast amount of change that is occuring in my life. Although some of my plans have worked themselves out i feel that only the material ones have not really bringing me the happiness that I thought i would be having. I mean in the end the only reason we want anything is to be happy and sometimes i just wish it was a feeling so much easier to reach. I may have acheived well at school but sometimes i wonder what could have been if i had taken a different additude. Possiblties are a mental killer sucking time and thought process from actual steps forward. I spend so much time preparing myself for the materialistic life but i seem to be missing out on they joy relationships and simple aspect of the world can supply because my attention is intently focused else where. I am just left with too many questions and just no answers.
I am playing too much of a catch up game to bring myself back up to where i thought i would be right now. Maybe its just a bit of luck that i need but what i really know is that it is time i actually put myself out there and looked for a real chances. It is so simple to say but its a trouble we all have i am quite sure.
So now i sit here amd enjoy my escape from the real world, sitcoms and in doing so contiue my self destructive path but who cares because in this very moment my own problems are forgotten and i can enjoy those of a fictional character. I’ll worry about my real problems tomorrow or at least a day that is soon.
Now my trivial dribble has been completed lets get more people following and more importantly more people commenting dont even coment about the blog say what you want get something going do it NOW!
13 comments:
Well here's the token 'me' comment.
Woo! Anti-materialism, that way EVERYTHING'S the enemy! Oh but you didn't want me to talk about the blog... too bad. That picture is way irrelevant, not to mention pixellated and drab... you lose, I'm not following this sort of ignorance to detail...
The pixellation adds to it, I think the picture compliments the theme of the post. And some visual variation is less drab than infinite walls of text..
I wish readers would comment more often, we need to do more plugging and stuff..maybe find other blogs to set up a dialogue with? erg I don't know, but we do need more of a community, it's kind of incestuous.
well im sorry but it was late at night and i could steal that picture from the blogger website
Ok, i'm a reader and i'm commenting, but i'm only going to comment about the blog, because i don't know what else to comment about.
I agree with you about the whole finishing school thing. It's one of those things that you look forward to for so long and you think when you finish you'll be deleriously happy, but for some reason you're not (sorry to break this to all the people out there still looking forward to finishing school).
For some reason there's this preconceived idea that finishing school will allow freedom to grow and change (cliche i know), but it doesn't really you're still the same person you were when you went to school, except with more time to fill. I still believe that we are products of our environment, i just also think that by the time you finish school a lot of your identity is set. You know what you like and what you dont and that's unlikely to change just because you suddenly don't have somewhere you have to be a 9 o'clock every morning. (Sorry i may have gone on a bit of a random tangent there, that doesn't really relate to your blog).
A comment that is more related: i am also petrified by the vast amount of change that is about to occur, but also looking forward to the end of the limbo that has been the time in between school and uni.
You asked for comments so here's another one! Lucky!
Still fourteen followers, I think I'll make some fake accounts...
As for incestuous, I have no idea where you think this blog's going, but it ain't south for the winter...
HEHAHAHA!! Rosencrantz fell for the trap, guess who's up for next blog post!
that sounds just a little evil...be nicer and less menacing and i might actually do it.
??? ummm... ok, got it!
Teeheehee, by disguising good naturedness as gullibility out of humility Rosencrantz has offered to post sometime...
How's that?
It's better, but did you consider that maybe i wasn't intentionally being gullible? and consequently that i wasn't actually disguising being good natured, but actually being good natured, seeing as mysterious follower asked people to comment?
Life Lesson: If you have a Mysterious Follower, don't just do what he tells you to... but wow, I only just realised this WASN'T Damacus, I think I like it more that way... still seriously considering abusing my admin priveledges and removing that picture though...
happy mr tongs there is a new picture
I'm developing suspicions of my own absolute power over the entirety of humanity... now to go and be irresponsible with my hellish gift...
lol I could tell by casual abuse that you thought it was me. And I wish i hadn't forced you into blogging those months ago.. it's empowering you and I DISAPROVE!
Hey Future Wife of Rosencrantz! Thankyou so much for reading and commenting, it's just made us all breath a sigh of relief that we aren't just incestuously talking to ourselves, we really appreciate it. Feel free to guest blog whenever you like, just tell me and I'll invite you.
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